Eyes from heaven...

It's 2 am and I've been up since 3 am. I have seen it all and thought of whatever crossed my mind. I shoveled my head from my notes, drove around the Island of rock and cuddled with a dog that is my soulmate. It has been weeks but it has been months that I have had this feeling.I walked to my window and saw the Ocean. Wide open. I look up and I see the clear night sky with sparkling eyes looking down. I heard nothing but the sound of the wind kindly running her gracious fingers in between the gorgeous hair of the palm tree that sits right outside my window. Could it be? Is life is beautiful once again? My battery is low but my energy has just renewed. Tonight something amazing happened. I decided that my future should not be decided by my past.

I think I have found the beginning of a new trail. I dare to look forward without looking back. I dare to smile...

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Fire!

Only us! Only we can start a fire. Only we can reverse a good for our joy. Fire used to be a good thing, allowing a jungle to be born again... until man learned its secret! To this day we burn others to ignite joy in ourselves. We lit fire to satisfy our hunger. We lit candles to satisfy our senses. We lit fire to satisfy our powerlessness. We lit fire to run away. We lit fire to burn... We let our failures ignite onto others rather than igniting from within to burn our failures! We can learn from a jungle that burns to be born again... We can too... Life's purpose is not to survive but to thrive!

It is Saturday night and I have 3 exams on Monday. Two weekends has passed and rain has been hitting hard on my windows. It seems quite interesting that some of these rain drops are destined to fall on the Ocean barley escaping Island life while some are crying down my window.

Tomorrow will be sunny again. It has always been that way. The calm after a storm. Remember that fire... It seems as though it is burning and I know that I will be born again soon. Stronger!

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Joke

An Israeli doctor claims 'Medicine in my country is so advanced that we can take a kidney out of one man, put it in another, and have him looking for work in six weeks.'
 
A German doctor claims 'That is nothing, we can take a lung out of one person, put it in another, and have him looking for work in four weeks.

A Russian doctor says 'In my country, medicine is so advanced that we can take half a heart out of one person, put it in another, and have them both looking for work in two weeks.'
 
The Texas doctor, not to be outdone, says 'You guys are way behind, we recently took a man with no brains out of Texas, put him in the White House for eight years, and now half the country is looking for work.'
 


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My hated love...

Flower hates the bee for hurting its feelings time and again, year after year... But flower cannot live without the bee... When the bee is around it's in pain, it cries... When the bee flies away, it dies...

Alone...

Flower can live in the rain forest and not flourish... It can lose its beauty when it finds out where you were that night... Whose arms picked you from the stem and took you away... It died when it saw you going away on your own... Alone... 

Rose turned yellow... Sunflower without its Sun... me without mine... you without yours...

Pain...

My pen doesn't write... My mind doesn't work... My pillow is wet... My phone has been broken... Memories have been shattered... 

Rain...

The end of an era where we never thought... where we never imagined... The work of one destined both... Diamonds fell... Crystals broken... Visions wet... The end in second version... The end seems to never end...

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When I was a kid, I looked at my dad's car and I saw my own face reflecting from the shiny part on the metal. I thought to myself that there is an audience that I can talk to and tell my life story. I was only seven. Now that audience has seen all of my life, so far... 

I have started a tradition for myself. Every now and then I looked into a mirror: 

"This has been my life so far, watch the rest of it live"

My dad has long been gone from this world... My eyes have drained from crying for him... I miss him dearly and I miss the childhood years of irresponsibility and carelessness... Today I am all alone... In every sense of the way...

Drained...

My life has not been fair, so far... People that I cared for and loved returned it with the sharpness of their knives... I knowingly turned my other cheek for them to do as they wish... Sometimes what you wish for is not what it is and what you know is the real truth yet you put your head in sand and think the world around you might turn the way you want and by the time you reveal yourself you painfully realize that what has been left of you has turned into dust...

Lust...

I want to be sorry for all that I have done but I don't know who to say sorry to... I don't know why and where my deeds have gone wrong that deserving is my punishment.

"This has been my life so far, watch the rest of it live"

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Blue

People are the most awesome creatures in the world. The are capable of tearing your heart without touching it, killing your soul without seeing it, believing in God without knowing her, love without feeling it, love without meaning it, care without wanting it, lie without honesty, cry with emptiness, fake with every breath and run when easiest.

There are those who are worth your every breath, your every moment, your every feelings. Correction. To think as if there are more than one would be a mistake, a lie! To think that more than one person can be a true friend is "beyond the scope of this course" as they always say. There is always that one odd person who will lend you an ear, hit you in the head, and tell you the truth as they see it. 

Mine is one. One that I can always count on. One that time and again showed me the true color of people. Clear, Transparent blue...

Aras River, Iran

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What you are made of!

Garbage smells better, fat is more rigid, darkness is brighter, dust is more loyal, ash is higher, ice is hotter and fire is cooler...

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Trust

When you walk at night, darkness covers all of what you don't see. These are the same streets, the same trees line the same sides. Everything looks like nothing. We trust darkness with every step, every breath and ever so bravely...

The Ocean is dark and scary at night. This is the same Ocean that blanketed beautiful girls and confidant men during the day. Reflected the Sun and raised waves. It is quiet and speechless. We trust darkness with every dive, every breath we hold and ever so bravely...

Darkness is the boiling point of any cycle. Once reached it is the end of one... Once passed it is the beginning of the rest... 

Day will come and another beginning struggles to beg for your trust. The trust that you so bravely gave into nothing, darkness, walking its nights and swimming its waters... We struggle to trust what we see, feel and touch yet give it to all that we don't know...

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